Things have started to die down after sometime and my emotion are starting to to be controlled by me again. Just as my bad feeling predicted, it was a 3 man outing, but at least it wasnt as bad as before, not as bad as on monday when we went for movies. I guess its cause of how i decided to set my mind to be.

Its impossible for what i wish for to happen, so i shall assume another role in your life i guess. I hope i will be able to stay at there forever and not leave, its hard for me to leave you actually. Despite all the random talks we had on the way hope and some clarifications of how i find it awakard for 3 man outings now, honestly i never had the intention of leaving cause i know it would be pain both for me and you, if it doesnt for you i guess something is just wrong with me. All i wish for is that you have found your happiness (:

I guess reading that random chinese book about relationship at popular somewhat helped me at letting it go slowly, as well as the winnie the pooh words. At least i felt good today and not terrible like that day.

There isnt much to talk about today i guess. Dont really know if revealing so much of what i think to you is the right thing to do. It wasnt my intention too. Its so hard to balance out when we said to be honest and transparents as BFFs but there are so many things that you cannot know else trouble might be caused. telling you so much i guess has already made some what of an impact which i didnt want it too. I just hope i can keep whatever else that you don't know with me and let this be something burried down in my heart where nobody except my bros know.

Ill recover soon and be your foodie buddy and dad in no time. dont worry!

Ciao~

Tian Fong