xiao tian tian =)

1:58 AM

Saturday, January 01, 2011

Day 11 without you as my darling.. (31.12.10)

its the last day of the year ler!!

omg..

i didnt manage to be home to blog on time

end up its posted on 2011 le ):

todays is 31st le..

omg!

few more days and im back in..

i cant believe it

u finish folding so fast sia..

end up i worried tt u might be lonely

kept thinking of ideas to pass u new stacks..

how can i be so forgetful or not xi xin

to get them for u yesterday sia..

i wanted to post over..

but it wun make it in time

i even though of going over tml..

but i checked le..

cant ):

better no try to break rules like wat many others do

dun wanna risk any chances..

sorry...

hope u dun feel lonely in genting

hopefully by tml i can think of smth for u to do

so tt u can be occupied. (:

hmm lets see

morning i woke up quiet early..

played some piano and seee my sis trying to salvage the netbook

while playing piano

i tot of the air on G string sia

watch too much next stopp le

hmm maybe i should change

watch too much episode 1 of next stop le

4 times le sia xD

cant wait to continue watching

so exciting sia

after playing piano..

went to help out around the hse a bit..

took care of nephew and stuff

time somehow pass very fast when u worry about stuff

keep thinking of how to pass u the packets of hearts

12 plus le.

so i went out buy lunch..

called u for a while

but u sounded busy

so i guess i shall not disturb u bah.

plus u going eat lunch also.

after buying lunch

i faster ate finish.

see-ing that i have to reach clar hosue at 3..

and need to go post office to check out some stuff..

i ate changed and left hosue le..

my mama kind of shocked i left house so fast though

went to popular to get the hearts..

and walked to post office

i asked tt guy if can reach u tml..

he say cannot sia.. ):

i wanted to go for plan b le.

go find u tml

but i text chee ask him he say cannot ):

haizz

guess it wasnt fated bah.

so let things be lo.. ):

but im still gonna send smth over..

hahaha..

i haven send yet though

in the midst of preparing. (:

after checking..

walked from post office to clar house..

and time to party!!

ok lar..

not really party..

there wasnt much people though..

hehs..

reached there early in the end..

so i sort of nua-ed in his room

watch big bang theory with him and laughed lo..

after tt chee they all start coming in

and we went on gaming spree (:

ordered pizza hut and kfc for dinner

wahhhhh

i tell u ar..

today de kfc is OMG!

the cripsy is like

black pepper plus crispy plus OMG chilli oil?? plus xxx hot stuff

super hot sia

it doesnt even taste like crispy lo..

its like chiiiili chicken!!!!!!!!

i ate only 1 piece.

left the rest for those chilli eaters..

hehe..

luckily i know my phone will low batt

brought my chargers..

so manage to text u whole day..

well heard u had crab for dinner

hope it was nice..

the party started late evening

when more ppl came in and things get more cozy

hahaha

kunny drop by for a while. (:

we played till 11 and started watching count down

hahaha

got so many comment sia we all.. xD

i wanted to text the system

to show some message

so i asked u if u watching chnl 5

end up u not watching..

so i didnt send lo ):

hahaha

but nvm lar...

after watching the zzzz concert..

finally its nearing 12am le.!!!

wooo

i wanted to wish u happy new year

so when left 1 min

i called u

quiet happy u picked up la..

tot u will leave u hp at some place and go see fireworks le..

managed to wish u happy new year as wat i wanted

but..

well i dunno how to say though..

u never even wished me anything

i guess its i didnt hear ba..

hopefully it is..

even after we smsed..

u never said anything..

well... haha...~...

after tt saw the 8 min fireworks on tv..

quiet cool sia..

too bad cannot watch it at the place..

so croweded plus no transport le..

after tt i went home le..

guess hes still at ur house so i didnt call

i think he will stay quiet late too

so i decided to take my time home

i walked super slowly..

though about many stuff

including those i wanted to think yesterday but never did..

i know u wun like reading it

and everytime u ask me whether im ok.. i alwasy say nth..

if u dun wanna read den jus stop here k.. night nights..

if not read on if u wan bah (:

i guess u have the right to know wat im thinking bah

ive been thinking..

yesterday u told me there was a point of time hj keep going ur hse

and stayed quiet late to chat..

ur mother approach u once

and asked who issit u really like...

me or him..

i know tt he will definitely go ur hse more often than me now..

so u said its him..

it will save more trouble bah..

tts wat i though when u told me yesterday

and tts why u dun wan me go ur hse..

cos u are suppose to have left me...

and in not much contact le..

only till today i started thinking

i wonder if im reading too much into it though..

but i guess i finally understand wat went thru ur mind to pick him

instead of me bah...

though it may be an asummption

but oh well....

today when u make finish..

i tot u will really ask him to buy the hearts to fold..

i dunno why.. im quiet protective of it bah..

though it may not be of much significance to u..

but to me it holds a lot i guess

tts why i dun wan anything to get it except either me or u

everytime i fold it.

i always think of u

even when things are getting bad..

very very bad..

these heart remind me

everything was worth a try

jus do ur best tf..

things will turn ok soon! cheer up tf..

believe in her tf..

trust her....

when u are with him..

and when u stayed over at his place..

these hearts tell me

dun be angry tf..

big heart a bit tf... she will understand one day de..

take it in ur strive like a man tf..

after all its for her good.. she will benefit from it..

so why worry tf.. its good!

though i kind of predicted tt it will never hit the quota i though of at first

i jus kept folding....

to me...

tt can of hearts.. though very ugly i would say

has lots and lots of significance in it to me.

i dunno about u though..

but now since its urs..

its urs to decide lar..

im jus glad after some chat u understand how much it is to me..

and ask him to get smth else for u to fold..

i really happy about it ^^

thanks zhi zhi

on the way home today

i though about how im going to live the next year thru

without you around..

where can i get my motivation from

when things get hard..

who shall i work towards to..

the 1st person i though of was u..

i dunno how long it will last..

i hope it will..

i still have many other thoughts..

but guess im goonna slp..

leave tt for another day bah..

plus u finished all ur stuff le.

maybe can call u for a min?

heheh..

nites nites..

sweet dreams zhi zhi!

thanks for everything (: