xiao tian tian =)

10:53 AM

Sunday, January 02, 2011

Day 13 without you as my darling.. (2.1.11)

today is sunday!!

one more day to book in. ):

wonder how life will be...

hopefully not too bad..

actually more shiong better i guess

in a way it will be better but maybe only for me.. (:

today u left for genting.. i feel so zzzz

cant even wake up to text u in the morning..

guess i m useless...

simple wake up also cannot.. ):

haiz.. missed messaging u at least a bit in the morning

woke up at 8 like tt. saw ur sms.. but i guess u left le bah

did nth much in the morning..

watched doraemon.. ate.. played piano a while..

and i watched next stop le !

haha.. exciting sia.. but i epi 3 only..

hehehs..

after tt left for lunch and vball!!

today vball was quiet fun..

played quiet well and happy.. haha

after tt went for dinner and home le..

wondered when will u be home and online

and as usuall start thinking again ):

i was very happy when i heard u reach there safely..

sorry i cant text u much.. i aint tt rich though..

can only hope u online and chat..

anyway u coming home tml le..

hope u will enjoy the whole 2d1n trip there..

u text me say u not feeling well.. do rest more k..

i keep saying it. but dunno u will listen ma..

im kind of worried though..

hopefully u can take care of urself..

today other than vball..

nth really much..

i go home.. den started watching next stop again

i cried a bit sia.. the party quiet touching..

i feel so lousy these days

i used to not cry about such stuff de

now easily touched.. haizz

pussy fong le lar. -.-

i also kept listening to the songs sia..

so nice.. and meaningfull. hhehe..

you are online now..

but not replying me..

i wonder wat are u doing though..

guess either u very tired...

fallen aslp..

or busy doing other stuff bah..

i guess guess also will know..

guess i wun get to chat with u bah.

do enjoy ur trip den..

i dun have much to say too..

other than ''penning'' down my thoughts later..

today has been a lonely one..

i guess this is wat the rest of the days will be bah..

book in and out wun make much difference le.

the whole remaining 1 year 2 months..

will be like tt..

i better get used to it..

dunno wat will happen tml and this week..

im really scared actually..

haizz.

well as usual.

dun scroll down if u dun wanna see what might make u sad

its ur choice..

if u feeling happy now.. STOP!!

and good nights..

sweet dreams zhi zhi (:

well...

today is another flashback day..

lets see..

it went back to.

roughly not long ago..

u already in uni

i remember one day..

we stand down at ur hostal downstair at the circular wooden thingy

we talked for quiet some time and cried..

tt night u said many stuff

i was very worried actually..

i didnt wan to go home tt night de.

but i guess i die die have to

else u wun fang xin and cannot slp.

i rmb end up tt day..

he come and find u after me.

and i find u the next morning

end up u didnt slp much thru the whole night..

and i rmb he hugged u tt night..

hahahhahahha

im so good at such details..

the most importnat of all is wat u said to me..

and i guess im going to use it now..

maybe tts wat i really gonna be le.. (:
u said..

''ren ben lai jiu ji mo de mar.''

''maybe im really a tortise.. im jus gonna go back into my lonely shell

hide inside and live my own life.. my own lonely life..''

after tt isnt really impt.. like wat he say he will break tt shell etc etc..

haha..

i though back..

maybe wat u said tt time

really applies to me now.

maybe i should have been lonely

after all ive been lonely for the pass 18 years of my life

only not lonely for 1 year plus..

so actually i should be lonely..

maybe im also a tortise..

i shall jus keep my head in

live in my own shell and my lonely life..

dun care about wats happening outside..

maybe i really should..

i guess its time tt i do...

sooner or later..