xiao tian tian =)

9:32 PM

Sunday, December 19, 2010

darling..

this week is monday book in. (:

yay..

can spend another night chatting with u

till we slp.. =D

cant wait for next week

whole week break..

can spend more time with darling..

i must make u the world's happiest women (:

at first i tot today can see u..

cos friday u nv go parade.

so maybe sunday can come out..

but i see u yesterday go party til so late

i guess not le bah.

ur dad will nag also.

better not.. dun wan u get an earful cause of me

next week still got a lot of chance

hope can go out often

i miss those days in jc

where we go out almost everyday..

so nostalgic when i think of it..

the day of school..

no worries or nth.. (:

today i did nth much though..

went walking around at bpp

haha..

went to look for a new bracelet. xD

some better quality de bah..

else keep missing

i see u so sad.

whole day watch anime and fb only

played bubble island..

quiet interesting ^^

den watched finish my zero no tsukaima..

watch bleach till latest..

wah...

exciting sia!

den fb got new updates..

class outing on my bday!..

i wonder if u purposely put it on tt day de lo..

haha..

hope there will be some surprise..

chirstmas is coming!..

i should have changed my leave dates..

so i can spend some time before chirstmas with u

and not all after chirstmas.

well..

too late to change le i guess..

have to change my plans..!

wonder if i will get anything this year..

its been long since i got anything from darling..

i dun blame u though

u've been busy with studies..

plus u at home always get bossed aroudn by ur sis

do this do tt..

guess u wun have much time bah

the greatest gift would be spending time with u..

this week never really spend much time with u..

even since few weeks ago

things a bit wierd wierd le..

i think for like 1 month plus..

we never really went out to play

for 1 whole day le..

we only met for like

maybe 4-5 hours each week..

at neighbourhood areas..

i wanted to bring u go flyer soon de

but today u told me

wed u going with jie han..

i a bit sian diao bah..

well.. wat to do..

my darling too chio le..

everyone wanna jio out for a date..

haha..

well..

i broke the question out again tdy

im sorry dear

sorry tt i doubted u

but im really confused..

i guess u are too..

after see-ing tt he actually sent u flowers..

with message of

''sa rang hei yo''

my heart literally lost everything..

it sort of stand still for a moment..

i didnt want to think tt way..

i always thought u and him..

were very good fren..

to the point of like and infactuation..

but with the way things are happening.

i can stop to think tt u might have fallen for him

and him for u as well.

tts why i broke the question again..

if things were really true..

im really ready.

sat morning i read a msg u sent wrongly..

it really struck me for a moment..

but i didnt wanna question

cos i was going to meet u tt day..

and u going to party..

didnt want to affect ur mood..

its been.. ages..

far too long to rmb..

the last good night msg u send me

u used to text me jus b4 u go to slp..

even though u said good nite at like 10pm

if u slp at 12am.

u will still send another sms saying good nite again..

but now u send it to him.

it raelly mean a lot to me..

its like when i fall aslp first

u dun even bother sending me an sms

to say u going slp le..

but instead u send to another guy..

it really means otherwise le.. ):

he would be back tdy..

and i guess with him back..

it would be hard to change things..

i really admire him

being sooo rich

to be able to call u for mins..

adding up to hours..

when overseas..

maybe tts something i lose at bah..

i lose to him at many things i guess..

i cant help to think im inferior than him..

i guess ive lost my self-confidence i used to have..

tt i was ''great'' and unique..

i wanna tell u..

i never blamed u for anything tt has happen

but instead i wanna thank you.

for all the memories and happy moments..

what ever may happen in the future

nobody knows..

there are just too many possibilities..

i asked u if u stayed with me

was cause u scared i sad..

and go thru wat u felt..

or u liked me..

to be frank...

im really grateful to u

when u said u wanted to salvage this relationship

i really tot u had no feelings at all...

but i wonder if these feeling are love

or empathy and sympathy..

i hope they are love.

i dun wan u to stand by me

just cos u promised to..

i dun wan an empty shell to be frank..

i rather see u being happy from afar..

i dun wan u to suffer..

being sandwiched between the both of us.

i wan u lead a carefree life

with less trouble to worry.

u know..

ive longed and missed for the feeling of being kissed..

cuddling each other..

hugging each other..

saying i love you to each other everyday..

lying on each other's shoulder..

taking couple photos everywhere we go..

doing things together..

spending every moment with each others..

i dunno when i will get them again..

maybe many years later..

maybe never..

darling..

remember to blog k..

i every week come bak wil check de..

what ever the future may hold

my love for u..

im sure of it..

will last for these 2 years at least..

my love for u will never change..

as the song goes..

nothings gonna change my love for u..

i love you dear.!..

see u next week..

MUACKS!

aishiteru~