xiao tian tian =)

8:13 PM

Sunday, December 12, 2010

Darling!!

sorry i didnt update my blog. ):

but i got often check ur blog k..

dun worry

i read ur posts =D

so continue to blog k? (:

its nice having something to read each week

during ur exam week u nv update at all

den every week i check a bit disappointed

haha..

wanted to blog yesterday at nite

after reading ur blog in the morning

end up my sis loot my laptop out

den i no com to use when i got home ytd

haha..

friday u sms me say sat can see me i super happy sia

keep smiling and stuff

maybe absence makes love fonder bah..

haha

nearly 2 weeks nv see u le..

miss u like mad..

wonder if u did miss me the way i did.. ):

i really hope u did..

but end up u sat nv come out and meet me

to be frank actually i was super uber sad

i tot really wun see u this week again..

den must wait till my parade den can see le..

darling..

you are the best le.!! (:

thanks for coming out today to find me k

though only for lunch and a while..

but it reallly was enuf..

it really made my day.

sat nite u tell me tt u today going ps alone

i guess u going meet him le

plus he going fly on monday

cfm meet him de bah..

haha..

but u wun see him for quiet sometime le bah

guess tts why u met him lo..

i wonder if u will miss him more than me

when he is not around..

despite u meeting him..

i guess today was really a nice day bah

i really enjoyed every moment

though there were a few awakard moments..

but it was realy nice..

its been long since we went out like tt

no sorrow and sadness

no quarrals..

its really sooooo nice..

i wish we can be like tt everyday (:

hopefully our relation will get better soon

i really dun wan us to be seperate entities.

i guess im really so bonded to u le

ive fallen so madly in love with u le

though its a bit bad to say..

but maybe with him overseas..

things may get better for a while..

or maybe not lar.. it really depends.. (:

i read ur blog..

dear..

please dont leave me k.

u may think tt it would be better for me..

but i can only tell u its not..

u think that u will only hurt me one time like tt

but to tell u

i feel it will be more than wat u expect it to be..

much more.. much much more..

on thursday..

u said that..

maybe we could have been friends..

den at least things can still be the way it is

but i guess.. if we really did.

things wun be the way it was

we wun go out neither will we call each other bah

there will definately be a sense of awarkardness

and maybe i dun buy into it..

maybe cos im afraid to lose u bah..

i guess im selfish..

im afraid u fall in love with him..

im afraid that if we become just friends

u will totally forget about me..

i will cease to exsist in ur heart..

im afraid of many things..

maybe tts why bah

im selfish cos i wan u by my side..

but if one day u really feel nothing for me.

i guess i will let u go bah.

please be honest to me

thats all i ask.

if u like him..

tell me

if u dun feel for me anymore.

tell me..

life may be easier for the both of us like this..

i see u feel so terrible

my heart aches even more..

i scared that being good to u

u will feel even more guilty..

thats not wat i wan..

i jus wan u to be happy and smile..

not u to feel guilty or anything

i dun wan u to be a deliemaa everyday..

i dun wan things to be so hard for u

but the harder i try..

the worse things get..

haizz.

im really glad that in ur blog

u write that u still miss of me.

it really means a lot..

though u no longer say i love you to me.

but i stil will say to u..

i know ur confused..

so u dun wanna say also..

theres so much i wanna tell u

everytime we meet..

but seeing u happy

is more than enuf.. (:

enuf of this talk..

shall talk about happy things!!

must always smile like tt

haha..

dear dear cut short hair le

so nice..

i cross my heart

*cross cross*

u are really beautiful today..

i guess short hair looks nicer

but dun get mistaken

u still look nice in long hair

guess no one told u before bah

but u really look CHIO!

hahaha...

i cant wait till next week..

can spend some time with dear again

i really miss u lots lots..

though the time we spent isnt long today

but any amount is sufficient enuf..

i can only hope for more..

chirstmas is coming..

i haven though of wat to get for darling ):

hopefully something will pop into my mind

hope dear will be there for parade..

its so significant to me and u i guess.

without you.. i wun be at the parade..

though its a bit dumb the parade..

but i jus wan u to see my pass out

think i will cry tt day lo . haha

hope wun paiseh xD

im going to book in le.

sorry cant spend more time with u

i promise my leave week

i will spend as much time as i can with u..

hopefully u feel the same too.. (:

i love you dear

ii loooveee youuu!!

aishiteru (:

hope can call u tonite..

see ya soon dear

muacks!!

love you..