xiao tian tian =)

11:57 PM

Saturday, December 18, 2010

dear!!

its been a long long week

so tired sia this whole week

rehersal almsost everyday

super shack..

jus to make it sui sui for parade

lets see...

hmm on monday...

3km run + some lectures.

tuesday...

3kmrun + lectureres again + rehersal

wednesday..

rehersal

thrusday..

rehersal..

friday

PARADE!

hahahahah

tts all for my week lar

wednesday onward super shoing

very tiring...

every night after i call u..

i auto KO le..

hahah.. only got 1 or 2 days

i somehow cannot fall aslp ):

been thinking a lot as usual..

yet i've nv came to any conclusion..

im very clear wat i wan..

but i know the chances of me getting it...

isnt very high either..

dear u know..

when i heard he was going overseas..

i was planning on smth..

i was kind of happy at first tt hes going overseas

it means that i may still stand a chance..

that things may change...

i squeeze all my brain juice out..

trying to think of ways to make u as happy as possible

think of how to make u re-live the feeling we had

the wonderful days we had..

i tot u will come for my parade..

and when i think back of BMT parade.

i rmb u made a card for me.

so i decided to write a letter to u..

that time u came for my parade and gave me the card

i was really super happy and touched..

that u actuall spend time to prepare such stuff

u spend so much effort and alwasy support me

so this time i wanted to thank you for everything..

but i nv expected that end up

u couldnt make it for the parade..

i was really kind of disappointed on tt day..

if it wasnt for ghim pulling me around to take photos..

i guess i would have felt super down

see-ing everyone's gf coming down..

all of their happy faces and taking photos with their lover..

for a moment i really felt...

lost u can say..

lost....

lucky i went cam whoring..

saw a few old friends and weihong they all too (:

after i reached home..

bathed..

the first thing i wanted to do was to call u and talk..

i forget wat it was..

but u were busy..

watching ur show i guess..

so being the usual me..

i didn't wan to disturb u bah so didnt really talk

wanted to do the chirstmas gift for u

end up slping at a very odd position...

woke up like an hour later and climb up my bed

and fell aslp till morning..

the next morning i woke up..

saw my hp got 4 smses..

quiet happy at first..

but wat came afterward was quiet saddening

one of the sms wasnt directed at me..

though it was jus a simple message..

but i guess it really shows a lot.

its really telling me a lot bah..

well..

after tt waking up at 7..

starting to chiong the card..

lucky i did some in camp during the week

so can save some time..

research on how to cut snowflakes..

den starting preparing and writing the ''card''

found a suitable bag for u to use..

den left house to meet u le..

rushed to cwp to get the bracelet..

den met u at old woodlands..

haha..

was kind of late by a few mins..

and made u wait for me again.. sorry. ):

when i passed u the gift..

i thought u will be elated..

u will be like surprised or smth..

cos i nv really made gifts for u.

not even speaking about hand-made stuff..

but u took the gift..

see see a bit..

and den carry it le...

i was kind of sad for a moment..

but things sort of took for the better..

when eating kfc..

u ask me help u put on the bracelet. (:

dunno what it may mean..

but it did cheer up my day...

after tt send u to cwp and off u go partying. !

den i went walking around..

and played ball at night..

at night after my game..

i knew u will take quiet a long time before u really left

so i rushed over to marsling in hopes to maybe pick u

if u really took ur time

but when i reach and called..

u were at custom le..

guess if i left slightly earlier..

i might still have a chance..

so i went home from marsling..

ended up reaching home ltr than u.

haha..

tts rare..

when i reached home..

i went ''stalking'' for a while..

check if u updated anything

and if anything was new on fb..

though u updated long ago..

but only till now den i saw it..

the 3 sunflower tt he gave u

with the card on top + the korean words.

though its kind of obvious wat those korean means

but i jus didnt want to believe it..

so i went to check it out from the black book u gave me

ended up was wat i expected it to be..

haha..

and since i took out the black book..

i continue reading it..

bringing back those memories..

water rolled down my cheeks..

hehs..

and i sort of lose myself for a moment xD

well..

seeing tt gift kind of made me understand much le

i've started to have conclusion about stuff..

but jus need answer to decide which conclusions..

after bathing i wanted to call u again.

but was on waiting..

and knew tt u were on call..

i really laughed at myself..

lucky no-one was awake to heear..

else they will think im crazy..

hahhahaha..

how foolish can i be sometimes tf..

hahahahahahahahahahah..

finally managed to call..

but nv raelly talked much

u sound so tired..

so i decided to not talk and let u go slp..

let u rest bah.. u need it after a day of party! =D

well off i m going to slp le.. tata.!

darling hope u liked the gift a lot..

i wanted to get u smth unique and special

and not so much of monetary value..

dun worry about the lost bracelet k..

im sure u will find it someday..

if not i will get u a better one next time.

though tt one really looked nice. (:

those 2 hearts dam nice. haha

well enjoy ur slp dear..

sweet dreams..

nights!

i love you.. (: