xiao tian tian =)

4:34 AM

Saturday, November 06, 2010

darling!!

im sitting beside u and posting now.

haha..

think u will know also bah

cos like very obvious also...

i typin so loud..

today blog 3 times le sia

ahhaha

1st time staying at ur hostal living room and study tgt

dun feel very good though

fell aslp like for 30min like tt..

den somemore very noisy i think

thats wat u tell me lar..

i did something unforgivable sia

);

i actually invaded ur privacy...

something which u hold dear the most

i dunno why

but when i woke up..

i was jus curious of wat u were talking to him about

den i jus looked lo..

saw 2 sentence and that made me though a lot lar..

i really wonder if im still worth to be ur bf sia

doing such stuff to u..

after seeing those 2 lines..

i felt like ive become a burden to u

i cant take care of u properly.

even though i promised u

i nv make u happy

but instead make u angry.

i cant even motivate u or help u out in studies

its like im the most useless and worse bf le..

i went out to think things thru.

but still cannot come up with any conclusions..

when eating mac with u

i also thought a lot

i know its quiet sian for u

when u see ur bf so sian sian emo emo

sorry darling..

give u xtra burden again..

i thought about how life may be

if me and him swap roles

like u met him first.. got tgt with him

den met me in uni..

i guess things wun be the same bah

u wun be caught in this triangle thing..

u wun feel so sad..

ur bf will be very good to u

can drive u aroung and spoil u with stuff

wun ps u cos of a ball..

things realy wun be the same bah

cos u and me wun be that close as compared to

u and him now...

since im not tt smart and stuff..

things might.. and jus maybe be so much better for u

but..

lifes like tt..

its was made for u to meet me first

den him in uni..

i dun wanna see u suffer in the middle..

though u say u dun feel it...

i jus want to give u all i can..

if to the point that all i can cannot make u happy

den the last choice will be used i suppose..

the thought went past my mind many times..

yet it was always ruled off..

i jus cant bear..

but if i know that u wil be 100 times better off

i will really jus let it go..

maybe if he was in my place now

he will teng u more than i did

cherish u even more from the start...

instead of starting it jus weeks ago

will be willing to wait for u for any amount of time

without feeling down

wun feel jealous when u go out with ur frens

i wish there was a machine

that lets people test out such stuf

at least if i seen the future and know if the outcome will be good

i wun have to think so much le

while eating mac i suddenly stop to listen to mp3

u know wat song i was listening to?

i think u can guess it de lar..

the same chinese song lo

yi ge ren sheng huo..

maybe im really like in the song

ai qing shi ge meng,

er wo shui guo tou..

perhaps i already overslept too much

though i dun wanna believe so

cos i know my darling love me very much

and so do i love her as much

i hope things will really straighten itself out

and light a path for us during ur sem break

sorry to say this...

but im kind of tired alraedy..

i know im not the only one tired..

u are tired as well bah

darling falling aslp on my lap now

the feeling so nice..

to see u aslp..

though water are rolling down my cheeks now..

i wish i can stop time and freeze at this nice moment

i also dunno wat i typing le

im jus typing wat ever nonsense thats coming to my mind

pardon me if wat i posted started to soudn negetive again

like weeks ago

though i promise not to think about such stuff again..

you jus woke up... (: