darling~
this week has been a very up and down one for me
i dunno how to explain too
i wrote sort of a ''dairy'' for most of the days
cos i was feeling too many emotions
i decided to pen it down to relieve the confusion in my mind
i still haven decided whether to let u read or not
cos the consequence very hard to predict
too many private content inside
i scared u read le not happy also
for the past few days i have been listening to An Jing
i also dunno why
the lyrics of the song suddenly hold so much meaning
that it was before
i actually cried once or twice while listening to it.
i hope our story dont end like tt song :(
dunno for what reason
random though keep coming to my mind too
whether giving each other some cool time is good
like not see each other for sometime
but i really dun really bear to either.
and that though was soon gone
on friday i also very emo
u walked home from timah market
being dragged by louis
den u walk till leg pain pain
den i see hj go save you i abit zzz
its like i felt super useless lar.
however.. for a point of time on sat
all my confusion jus went gone
all emotions tt i had went blank for some time..
due to ur lump on ur lip
i was really super concern.
u really broke down, very afraid...
my heart jus sort of ''melted''
and all the jealousy or wat shit. jus went away
i jus wan u to be safe and sound
i dun wan u to feel sad or anything
as long as u are happy.. tts all tt matters
thats wat tt went thru my mind...
but after tt.. on sat night
u told me u going out with sherley they all
with ur niece to underwater world on sunday
the feeling slightly came back
but..
im jus going to ignore it if possible
i wan u jus to be happy and enjoy all the time
for i dunno what may happen in days to come either
hopefully nothing happens..
please be safe k darling
(:
oh ya.. if u wanna read wat i write on my book
den tell me.. i see if i decided whether to let u..
hahah
muacks.. take care dear =D
